S U N I S R I S I N G

berbekalkan musik mendayu-dayu dari folder lagu i kat laptop nie, tetiba i rasa nak menaip. meluap-luap rasanya.  gigih pulak tau.. 2 entry skali naik. haaaa hambekkk! ngeh ngeh

literally, i dah berusia 25 years ols. doesnt feel i ages at all. tapi bila tengok Safiyyah (anak sepupu) dah masuk darjah satu kalau dulu selalu main -main dengan dia pantang jumpa akumesti! mintak phone. sekarang dia dah pandai dan ada phone sendiri. tengok adik kawan member semua dah habis SPM. bila tanya adik kau sekarang buat ape? adik aku dah masuk degre, diploma, bla.. blaa.. pokoknya, i nak cakap yang semua dah habis sekolah. what? how time flies kan?

im getting older, day by day. tak yah bilang hari, setiap minit-minit yang bakal di tempuhi pun dah cukup nak menandakan yang daku makin tua. oh no! not only me, including you! HAHA

umor 25 tahun, some dah punya segala, career, aset , family and some still merangkak.. i was one of them masih merangkak. 

okay, aku nak jadi cheesy dikit tonight, tak malu betol tapi tak kisahlah/ jarang rasanya aku hupdate pasal hati nie die sebab dah serik. sakan punya tapi satu pun tak jadi! macam ape ntah! so, bialah di pendamkan perlahan-lahan. chiewah tapi bolehlah sekali sekala buat confession kat sini. nak confess di UIA confession malu plak itew. hak hak hak gedik lah mekpah!

i am single. takde istilah scandal, tak de eh.. orang cakap takpe aaa takde pakwe ko scandal ramai! oiii cantik sikit! lansung takdak okay. phone aku sunyi je kalau  takde orang whatsapp.. harapkan whatsapp group je lah. lau tak jangan harap lah weiiii!!.  aku pun taktau lah kenapa, im a true loner and loser. adalah tu kan silap mana-mana Allah takizinkan lagi. insyaallah lepas nie kalau jumpa terus kahwin. tak payah nak couple lelama ye tak? hehe

dear Mr Zauj,

i dont know where you are, who are you. everyone might tell u are the unluckiest person in this world for choosing me. i had infinities of imperfection. u had no idea about that. but, please bear with that. u never know how hard i wanted to change.. to behave like others. please know i am a person who hard to take care of others and mind them but once i do, i will do it my entire life. i love my brothers, i cant lose any of them anymore. so please  be nice with them. i missed my mom and dad, so i am hoping that ur parents will love me.

kalau awak cari seorang yang penuh kesempurnaan, yang cantik, pandai dari segala aspek, saya jauh bezanya. saya paling lemah untuk melakukan kerja rumah. i tried my best tho.. i tried my best to be worth by some one, one day. MOM surely proud with me now. i will promised to stay  with u , facing all bad circumtances together, just let you know i'm good enough with that after abah left me. it just, i dont mind anything as long, bila saya demam awak bawakkan ubat panadol untuk saya. bila saya sedih, awak dah tau macamana nak naikkan semangat saya balik. dah banyak kali bagitahu dekat kawan-kawan aku . HAHAHA.

takpelah en jodoh, manalah awak nie kan? takpe saya yakin awak akan datang.. by time passing Insyaallah. saya tunggu dan cuba jadi yang terbaik untuk awak. mungkin ini masanya saya berserah kepada pencipta. segala rezeki, jodoh, ilmu, kejayaan ditentukan oleh Allah. semoga terbukak hati kita pada waktunya. sekarang kita tengok kebahagiaan sahabat handai. Insyaallah. mungkin masa yang ada sekarang nie untuk perbaiki diri dulu. kan? 

last sekali, i love this song. semangat bila down. =)

"The Sun Is Rising"

When life has cut too deep and left you hurting
The future you had hoped for is now burning
And the dreams you held so tight lost their meaning
And you don't know if you'll ever find the healing

You're gonna make it
You're gonna make it
And the night can only last for so long

Whatever you're facing
If your heart is breaking
There's a promise for the ones who just hold on
Lift up your eyes and see
The sun is rising

The sun is rising

Every high and every low you're gonna go through
You don't have to be afraid I am with you
In the moments you're so weak you feel like stopping
Let the hope you have light the road you're walking

You're gonna make it
You're gonna make it
The night can only last for so long

Whatever you're facing
If your heart is breaking
There's a promise for the ones who just hold on
Lift up your eyes and see
The sun is rising

Even when you can't imagine how
How you're ever gonna find your way out
Even when you're drowning in your doubt
Just look beyond the clouds

Just look beyond the clouds

Whatever you're facing
If your heart is breaking
There's a promise for the ones who just hold on
Lift up your eyes and see
The sun is rising

The sun is rising

Even when you can't imagine how
How you're ever gonna find your way out
Even when you're drowning in your doubt
Just look beyond the clouds

p/s: please dont get me wrong. i'm not desprate macam yang duk viral-viral nak cari jodoh semua jadah tu. I rasa nak menulis saje. meluahkan . nak luah in person no body will know. this is my healing. so please do not misunderstand. 

with love,

nur hafifah hazizi

N e w y e a r w i t h n e w p h a s e !

It is finally 2017 and still in January so i guess i'm not that late to wish

  HAPPY NEW YEARRRRR!! yeah, now is 18th January kot.

Alhamdulillah, i has ended my degree life !!! basically not official yet. hopefully, everything turn out well for me. okay dah la.. malas nak speaking penat aih nk kena brain ayat, grammar semua semua. i had enough stress kot. setelah hampir 3 bulan lamanya di bumi Shah Alam, finally! aku boleh jugak balik rumah di kampung, tidur lama-lama macam dah tanak bangun. seriesly, aku nak bergerak pon malas wei. nak bergerak sekejap pn xmampu.. taktau kenapa jadi malas gila. mungkin, mungkin sebab dah hampir sebulan lebih aku dah habis kan masa berjaga, berpenat lelah , otak semua untuk siapkan thesis aku. so, bagilah dulu diri peluang nak rehat sekejap. kannnnnn~

so, after this what is next?

of course JOB HUNTINGGG!!! 

job hunting? senang ke nak dapat? alamak aihh seram siot. migrain kepala pikir masa depan. rasa nak menjerit. i dont know where and how to begin what so call 'Job Hunting'. last last aku bukak laptop aku layan stocks movie. i had plenty of them.! stress-stress nie lah aku. malas nak hadapi lagi. lagipun semua fail-fail akuada dengan my bro. lagi seminggu dia balik. so, aku akan mulakan job hunting aku seawal bulan 2 insyaallah.

so, aku buat ape sekarang? aku mengasuh adik aku kat rumah. masak, kemas rumah., as the way i want it to be.i  nak mantapkan saham, nak pandai masak..pandai lipat baju dan jugak sapu rumah. part nak lipat baju dan jugak sapu rumah tu aku palinggg malas nak buat. doa-doakanlah supaya badan aku tak naik membulat sementara di rumah nie. insyaallah.

p/s: semoga dimurahkan pintu rezeki hafifah hazizi, semoga dipermudahkan jalan baginya. ameen

with love,

nur hafifah bt hazizi